/yawn
...so productive.

Journal... journal... journal journal journal... What am I supposed to write in you again? You expect too much from my thoughts.

I am back in school...
I feel behind...
A lot of bad things are happening around me...
I feel useless most of the time...
Can I do nothing to ease the burden of others?

If only I were more.
If I were worthy of more.
I could do something
to save the ones I love
from the things that eat at their hearts.

What to do... what to say...
Journal, oh journal, you are too harsh.

"The surge or Rebirth shall become light and fill the world. Thou shalt lead the new Gods to their twilight. Thou destroyest and createst, thou powerless one. As the stirring footsteps of a giant shadow sound... Oh blessed be the little ones." -Fidchell's Prophecy, Dot Hack//G.U. Vol. 3

....

[ ] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] You love music
[ ] You have your own room [It isn't mine anymore...]
[x] You own a mobile phone
[x] You have an ipod/mp3 player
[ ] Your parents are still married
[x] You have more than 1 best friend
[ ] There is a swimming pool or hot tub or trampoline in your backyard

TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[ ] You dress how you want to
[ ] Sometimes you hang out with friends more than once a week
[x] There is a computer/laptop in your room right now [Not my room]
[ ] You NEVER cry
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to
[ ] Your room is big enough for you

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[ ] You have over 50 friends on myspace.
[x] You have pictures on myspace.
[ ] Your parents let you have a myspace.
[ ] You get allowance
[x] You collect something
[ ] You sometimes look forward to going to school/work
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else
[ ] You play sports
[x] You will do something after school/college

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[x] You have a car/truck
[ ] You usually don't argue with your mom/dad
[ ] You do not have any failing grades
[x] You have friends

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

[ ] You know what is going on in the world [only know what is going on in my world...]
[ ] You care about many people
[x] You know more than one language/​learning a language
[x] You have a screen name
[ ] You own a pet. [They aren't really mine...]
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs
[ ] You don't have any serious enemies
[ ] You are generally a nice person

TOTAL SO FAR: 14

Now count your numbers and multiply by 3

Then title this "my life is __% perfect"

If I were a month I would be: September.
If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday.
If I were a time of day I would be: 3:33am.
If I were a planet I would be: one still unknown by humans.
If I were a animal I would be: a wolf.
If I were a direction I would be: Abouve.
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a mirror.
If I were a historical figure I would be: Gilgamesh.
If I were a liquid I would be: methyl nitrate.
If I were a tree I would be: a Sakura (cherry-blossom).
If I were a flower/plant I would be: a white rose.
If I were a kind of weather I would be: a blizzard.
If I were a musical instrument I would be: a violin.
If I were an emotion I would be: Love.
If I were a color I would be: silver.
If I were a vegetable I would be: spinach.
If I were a sound I would be: the sound of the planet dying.
If I were an element I would be: Earth or Ice (Wind and Water).
If I were a car I would be: totaled.
If I were a song I would be: Winterborn, by the Cruxshadows.
If I were a movie I would be directed by: Tim Burton.
If I were a book I would be written by: Edgar Allen Poe.
If I were a food I would be: a strawberry.
If I were a place I would be: the moon.
If I were a material I would be: Steel.
If I were a taste I would be: sweet.
If I were a scent I would be: that of roses.
If I were a word I would be: forsaken.
If I were an object I would be: the gallows.
If I were a body part I would be: the eyes.
If I were a facial expression I would be: -comfort-.
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Squall.
If I were a shape I would be a: Pentagram.
If I were a number I would be: 6669

So I haven't posted a journal in a while. Well, a lot has happened...

My Grandmother passed away over thanksgiving and I have had plenty to do regarding her death and figuring out what to do next. My Uncle has ownership of her house, the one I had been staying at, and has ordered for it to be swept clean of my Grandmothers 30 something years of living here collection of junk. It has been my great displeasure to be the one to do most of the cleaning, as in the end he will simply kick me out.

The economy sucks. There are little jobs and a large number of people seeking work. I am amongst the unhappily unemployed.

My best friends Grandfather died on the 2nd. May he rest in peace in God's hands. I give my condolences and blessings to the Garnsey family.

And I also feel for the Pharis's loss of their beloved Maggie.

It would seem death is among us.